Sunday, May 2, 2010
So, there are 8 people pregnant in my area (two wards, which split recently, so I know everyone). 3 of us are due within a week of each other (December), and the rest anywhere from August to November. Yes, I really believe they put something in the air ducts at church. I know I'm only nine weeks into a 40 week long event, but I've already gained weight. And I'm having a really hard time with it. Well, it's really easy to gain the weight, but mentally, it's taking it's toll. I've always been pretty happy with my body and I've never been much for comparing my figure with others. I am who I am and this is how my body is, it's just not like yours, and that's okay. But now, I feel differently. I don't know if it's pregnancy hormones, or the fact that every week at church someone would comment on how good I look (I know, it shouldn't matter what others think), but now, I am already comparing myself to how all the other pregnant ladies look. I am short-waisted, seriously, there is a 2" space from the bottom of my rib cage to the top of my pelvic bone. That is not a lot of room for a growing baby. And I retain a lot of water, so my face is fat, my boobs (as we know) are even bigger (I've gone up a cup size). I am NOT a cute pregnant lady (although someone at church recently told me that there is a beauty in all pregnant people, even if they don't look good...yeah). With my other 3 pregnancies, I always gained right around 40 pounds. So, now I'm comparing myself to all the other cute, pregnant ladies. And I feel fat and depressed. Tired and lazy. Sick and...gross. I know that everyone is trying to lose weight on this blog (or maintain and live well), but any ideas on how to overcome the MENTAL challenges of GAINING weight? I don't want to spend the next couple of years comparing baby weight to the 7 other people who are having babies too. I seriously need help. HELP!
Posted by Jenn at 7:47 PM