I totally fell off the band wagon today! I hate it when I fall that hard. Seriously! I couldn't leave the gourmet chocolates alone.
I've mentioned before that I really lack self control. Over the past month I have made so many goodies...brownies, cinnamon rolls, snicker doodles, rice krispie treats, banana bread, scones, oatmeal chocolate chip cookies, sugar cookies, zucchini bread, more cinnamon rolls, chocolate crinkles, peanut butter cookies, and on and on, and I haven't eaten a single one. They don't tempt me because they have wheat in them, and I have learned the hard way what happens when I eat wheat.
When I first stopped eating gluten, I would cave about once a week, and I paid for it by getting sick for a few days. Recently I ate dinner at a neighbors house who didn't speak English very well. In order to avoid being rude, I ended up eating her delicious meal, made with wheat, and spent 4 days sick and miserable. So all these goodies no longer tempt me. Wheat is scary to me. In fact, it's very liberating to be able to cook delicious goodies that my family can enjoy with out even sampling one lick of batter. This type of self control can be misleading though. I begin to think that I am beyond temptation, that I have conquered it, when in fact I have little self control when it comes to treats that I can eat.
With pride in my heart, I went to Costco and bought some gourmet chocolates. I remember holding the container in my hand and thinking "I am stronger than these. I'll just have one every now and then."
So back to the gourmet chocolates. They are gluten free. They are delicious and melt in my mouth. I ate 8 of them today, and they are taunting me, up on my shelf, staring me down every time I get the nerve to glance in their direction. I will probably go lock myself in the bathroom as soon as I am done writing this. I'll probably even sleep in there tonight, until someone comes and saves me.
Anyone want to intervene?
Anyone want to march over to my house and pluck them off my shelf and take them elsewhere?
Truthfully, I bought them for the sisters I visit teach. They won't get any though. They are almost gone.
Thanks for listening.
I just can't have this stuff in my house anymore. Is that cheating? Is it ok that I don't really have any self control? Is it weak to run in the face of danger and temptation? Joseph ran from Potipher's wife. I'm gonna be like Joseph and run from chocolate...starting tomorrow.