Friday, December 10, 2010
I know I have been absent for quite sometime. I have a lot of thoughts on my mind lately. As I try to sift through everything, I feel overwhelmed. Unfortunately this blog has not been a priority. I haven't given up, and I will be back. I have to take a moment to sift through everything. My mom was diagnosed with Cancer and is having surgery on Monday. Not only am I sick to my stomach about it, but I am also angry with myself. I know, not a positive thing, but it will pass, and I will use that anger to do positive things in my life. You see, I always thought there would be so much time. There would always be enough time to get in better shape to run with her. I procrastinated, and now, I felt like, overnight my time ran out. So, naturally I was angry. Running with my mom, was never just a run. It was developing a deep relationship. One that can only be created through hours of intimate conversation. One only created by the relationship, and support of running. Accomplishing amazing goals. As I sat with her one day and talked about my frustration, she reminded me that I had promised to run another half marathon with her. That she was going to get better. I've made a promise to myself, I will do whatever it takes, to get to that point, so I can still have those intimate moments with her. I am desperate for her. A temporary setback, but I'll be back stronger after the year comes to a close. After my mind can settle from all my worrying.