Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Nervous Eating Continue

I've been thinking about Jennifer's post a lot lately. Kind of funny how random posts do that to you. I love this blog and how honest we can all be and how safe it feels. I used to feel so alone. That my eating habits were one of a kind. I'm beginning to realize that most people have a comfort relationship to food. I am certainly jealous of those that don't. I feel like I have come a long way, although I am not perfect. I still have bad days, where I just don't care and don't want to think about the consequences. Comfort food is a true honest battle for me. I know we all have our weaknesses, and I can fully admit that food is the one for me. I have used food to self medicate my emotions since my parents divorced when I was 13. Eating, overeating, allows me to fill the basic need for comfort in that moment when the emotions are going wild. And yes, I want all you comfort eaters to realize, IT IS ONLY A MOMENT! Sure comfort eating might make us feel better for a moment, and I absolutely realize that sometimes that moment feels worth it. A moment of pleasure sounds better than just dealing with my emotions in a moment of weakness. I have been working on a measure of forgiveness to myself. And, I can honestly say, after many years, I think I've achieved it. How do I know that? Because I don't give up on myself. I keep moving forward because I want to conquer this battle. When I have the anxiety to eat, I force myself to carefully work through my emotions. If I do, when the emotions are over, I feel a great self accomplishment. More than any other thing I've done. When I give in, it's a temporary fix. Not only do I feel physically sick, but my emotions are worse than when I started. So here is my encouragement: I challenge all you emotionally eaters out there to feel the accomplishment of success. Forgive yourself of past mistakes, move forward, and overcome your challenge. If you are like me, this is the hardest thing you will do, but it will be the most rewarding!


  1. What a great post. Thanks so much for sharing!!

  2. Thanks so much for you encouragement. It is nice to hear someone so far along in their progress to give personal advice.

    And I love your insight on forgiveness.

    I have this reoccurring conversation with myself about why am I so drawn to food in this moment or that moment. And what strategy can I employ when faced with that emotion again. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.

    I also appreciate your comment about working through the emotion. It is only a moment! Mostly I have to remove myself from the environment (usually my family room or kitchen). Just that small change of venue can make me turn elsewhere for comfort and perspective.

    Right now I've created a web of bad habits since Logan was born and I'm just trying to be brave enough to change. Even if the change seems tiny.

    Again, I really appreciate your honesty and would fully welcome any other insights you get in the future to help us emotional eaters.

  3. Alicia, thank you so much for your thoughts and encouragement to each one of us. It's funny, most days I'm doing pretty good but when I've had my rough days I think two things. Why did I do this and after I work on forgiving myself I ask myself what I could do better next time.

    This summer is going to be a huge challenge for me, but particularly these next two weeks. There are lots of triggers that I know I'll be exposed to and I've got to try my best to manage them. I hope that I'll have positive mental thinking not only to help me through but to know completely beat myself down if I fail.

    I've done a lot of thinking this past week about what happened last summer that took me to that dark place that I've talked about before. It's scary but at least I know I'm not alone this time.

    I have support and I have knowledge and desire to not let it happen again.

  4. Alicia, I always love your honestly and insight. I often find myself saying "yes, that is exactly how I feel" or "yes, that is what I do." It makes getting through my challenges seem that much more doable because I know someone else has done it. Keep up the great posts.

  5. Alicia, your posts always inspire me. Reading this made me think, "Do I need to be more introspective when I'm tempted by food?" Something to think about.

    Audrey- Am I a trigger? Sorry about the ice cream last night (*grins sheepishly*) ; )