This weekend it happened. It has happened on a smaller scale a few times but this time I honestly feel like giving up and quitting. I get tired of being good, tired of depriving myself, tired of spending my days struggling to maintain control and yet feeling like at any moment I am going to snap and go off the edge. Counting calories and my health seem to consume my thoughts and I just want to rebel and not think about it anymore. Does this make sense to anyone else?
Lately, I feel like my healthy weight is unattainable. Logically I know this isn't true but I just can't seem to convince myself of this. There are a few things I know are contributing to my frustration. One being that I have been on a weight plateau for two months now but poor sleep and that time of the month I know are contributing as well.
I don't want to be a quitter and give up but I might need to approach this differently. I am taking myself out of the rest of this challenge, not to give myself an excuse to go hog wild but because I feel like I need to step away from the numbers. Maybe this is the wrong way to go about things but I am going to try it. Sorry for the vent session, but writing this has actually seemed to help.
Don't worry, I'm not giving up just taking a small sabbatical while I figure things out.